Its entirely up to you
what you do with my heart
Just don’t break it.

Speak farewells to goodmorning
Drifting on sunrises
begging for changes of fate
or forgiveness of recent happenings
The stars may watch over you
Twinkle at your liking
Fall at your wish
But they will leave
They will leave you
At the sight of mother
They too must run
They must hide from telling
Pressed against dark skies
So that their secrets will be hidden
In the dark
Never coming out to the light
To be discovered
That what we wish upon
Is only dust
Gas
particles of the already dead star

I took to painting
Its not what I thought.
Colors are blunt
They speak harshly
Only to darken the life
That I have sketched
I release
And lightly stroke
Too much
Too thin
Too defined,
Its no use
I’m not painter
I’m not good with colors
But I will write
I will let ink paint my thoughts
I will let this writer detail my dreams
If you see
If you examine my words
You’ll see the painting
The painting I’ve painted within me

Serene divinity
Take me to the sky
Give me wings to fly
To escape what I’ve become
Only drowning today;
In the pool of sin
Drenched in the hate of others
Their fuel to my living
I ask the goodness within me
To live outside
I ask it to bring me back
I’m taking too far to this river
I’m falling too far off the earth’s edge
Save me!
Why do you pull back as I ask?
Your hands shake
Your head turns
You’ve deceived me
I’m taken to misery
My eyes follow down
Down, to where my body will lay
And my hands let go
as my heart forgives you.

If ever I were to lose a lover
I’d tie myself to his death
And beg it to take me with it
I’d never raise a glass
Nor would I ever comfort another soul
I’d give up my laughter
And I’d tear out my sight
for how could I go on tasting life?
How could I go on dancing,
If I’m also on my knees with death?
I could never live with out you
But id never let myself cry
Its not that I’m weak
Nor that I have no emotion
But the thought of rain on a sunny day
Is just what’d make you die
so I’d rather live,
I’d rather live by you-
I’d rather smile
So you would smile too
But now that you lay here,
With only breathes too close
I lay my eyes upon yours
And together we go to our new home

What light can give us
dark will create it.
We were born
With the lightness of beauty
And the darkness of mystery
Two world’s messhed
in our souls
Two worlds that
We cannot change
But we can embrace-
I’ve embraced the loss
Of light
And the loss
And the gain of dark
both fully devoted
Both dully mine,
And I’ve seen it in you
I see it every time you cry
Everytime you weep for me
For the way I’ve died
The way I choose to live this life
But by light in me
I will live free
And my darkness
Will take me there.
So shut your eyes dear one
We are but sun and moon
another year of eclipse

If I were to say to you, that each day I miss you, that every night alone I dream of you and every morning I wake up craving you, would you come back to me then?

he only smoked in moments of nervousness or when he had alot on his mind. this was one of those times. i loved it though, every bit of it, from lighting his cigarette to breathing out the first air of smoke from those perfect lips. he liked that i smiled everytime he smoked. i loved that he noticed the small details of me when he did, such as, how my hair only parted one way and fell over just one side of my face. he said, “only you can make such an ugly habit, a beautiful moment. its the only reason i dont quit because i’d have to quit your smile.”

i never asked you to give me your tomorrow
i didnt even kiss you back when you
placed your lips on mine,
i just took a look into your soul
i let my eyes gaze through yours -
i saw your emptiness,
i saw your loneliness
and i knew youd use my freedom
to free yourself,
and so you did,
you were free -
for those moments
that i let you take me in
and you were free -
for those moments
that you kissed a corpse,
one that you believed to be
me

It’s relaxing to me -
Having your words
Being read back to me
From the small voice
In my head

A little woman up there,
Reading aloud what you
Think of summer
And how you compare my
Kisses to the sunrise kisses
To the water lines

It’s beautiful how
She stops at your commas,
Taking pauses of breath,
Trying to capture
Your words meaning
Giving me time to
Take in the illustrations

I thank her,
I always wish to have her,
Reading to me -
For when you stopped
Communicating your feelings
She still whispered
What you felt,
She’s the only one who understood