yet the stroke
i fell without
i was soon tangled
although i had
he cared for me
we could no
it was no fairy tale
i thought i
but youve stolen
theres nothing else
i say: ill always
It was just one kiss
rivers bursts through my chest-limitless direction
"No needles, nor thread. You know my hand alone has touched the curves of your face n renewed your morning smile."
remember that night?
I was looking for a ride home
(i thought i was done for the night)
but you grabbed me and pulled me into your car
it took no time to see where this would lead
(i was no amateure when it came to this)
so i took the band that wrapped my hair and snapped it off
let my locks of hair fall onto the grundgy shirt i had on
we pulled into a parking lot of some abandoned grocery store
(i guess youre not too fancy)
i never met someone quite like you
there was no end to the roughness of your sculpture
you made me forget everything i ever knew
the windows were a fogged canvas which my hands had drawn on
your kisses where devine never lifting away
your hands pressed against my body
with every push i felt i swaying back in your direction
(damn i think im falling in love)
then.. you looked at me
why did you have to let your eyes say hello to mine?
that was it, it was done
that was the night ill always remember
you turned a hooker into your housewife
never did i look back
(well except for the moments i share my skills)
No love will follow me
Do you know what it feels like to have everyone stare at the label that dangles above your head?
Do you understand that the very instant you take a step its already premeditaded by the ones who want you to fall?
Its the very moment you walk out your door
and notice that all the street lights are out
there is no more lighted way for your movements
everything has become as you dreamt it in your nightmare
happy endings are not destined for you
Do you know how quiet a silence can be?
Has someones glance at you meant more than just “i know that girl”?
Its not the second i chose to give him everything
that my life was destroyed
but just once… just…that… once
that i made the decision to fill in the emptiness of my heart
you took it to the world and demolished my dreams
Do you know what it is to not know love?
Have you ever felt that sinking feeling in your stomach that tells you, “who will ever love you”?
If not, ill show you
i carry it with me
Placing my hands on your steamed windows
watching as you let her become your everything
as you lead her into deception
just the way you did with me
you took her hands and walked her through “love”
smiled at the silly things she said;
the “cuttest things”, you said.
i thought twice about putting a bullet
through her head
but, i knew that you would do the same to another.
i was another
i guess the only answer is to put the bullet
through my head…
when i was found all they saw
was an obsessed girl with a gun in her hand
and a note: “i wish i was her.”
i give love to you two
goodmorning my love of eternity
goodnight infatuated lover
To you both