the moment
we met with sight
is the second
i learned to love

he watched
me struggle
he watched me wilt

yet the stroke
of his palm
to my cheek
was magic

i fell without
breathe to his
every word

i was soon tangled
in a large web
of love and happiness

although i had
nothing to offer
i was broken within

he cared for me
he loved me
he became part of me

we could no
longer live
without the sound
of the other

it was no fairy tale
it was no lie
the passion we held

i thought i
would never
be able to say
these very words

but youve stolen
my heart and
my mind

theres nothing else
i am hollow inside
but with these tears
of joy

i say: ill always
love you….
til the day we die

Sweet nothing,

become my something

forget everything

waking from
a nightmare
i saw a
dream
there you were
with your
unshaven face
just the way
i love it
with your
arms still
around me
still strong
so secure
as your
eyes opened
you cracked
that smile
you said
hello
my greeting
was with
the brush
of my hand
to your cheek
and a kiss
to your
lips..
oh how
i love you

rivers bursts through my chest-limitless direction
created by two souls that so beautifully blend
colored faces used from the skies gateway to the evening sun
butterflies migrate from the lips of a rose to your stomach
portraying the movement of your hearts beating
gravity is every so strong to make you kneel
to make you surrender
to one kiss.. one kiss of fire

I was looking for a ride home

(i thought i was done for the night)

but you grabbed me and pulled me into your car

it took no time to see where this would lead

(i was no amateure when it came to this)

so i took the band that wrapped my hair and snapped it off

let my locks of hair fall onto the grundgy shirt i had on

we pulled into a parking lot of some abandoned grocery store

(i guess youre not too fancy)

we kissed

we tugged

we pulled

and shoved

i never met someone quite like you

there was no end to the roughness of your sculpture

you made me forget everything i ever knew

the windows were a fogged canvas which my hands had drawn on

your kisses where devine never lifting away

your hands pressed against my body

with every push i felt i swaying back in your direction

(damn i think im falling in love)

then.. you looked at me

why did you have to let your eyes say hello to mine?

that was it, it was done

that was the night ill always remember

you turned a hooker into your housewife

never did i look back

(well except for the moments i share my skills) 

Do you know what it feels like to have everyone stare at the label that dangles above your head?

Do you understand that the very instant you take a step its already premeditaded by the ones who want you to fall?

Its the very moment you walk out your door

and notice that all the street lights are out

there is no more lighted way for your movements

everything has become as you dreamt it in your nightmare

happy endings are not destined for you

Do you know how quiet a silence can be?

Has someones glance at you meant more than just “i know that girl”?

Its not the second i chose to give him everything

that my life was destroyed

but just once… just…that… once

that i made the decision to fill in the emptiness of my heart

you took it to the world and demolished my dreams

Do you know what it is to not know love?

Have you ever felt that sinking feeling in your stomach that tells you, “who will ever love you”?

If not, ill show you

i carry it with me

Smother me lifeless

theres no release

as the one you give me

Placing my hands on your steamed windows

watching as you let her become your everything

as you lead her into deception

just the way you did with me

you took her hands and walked her through “love”

smiled at the silly things she said;

the “cuttest things”, you said.

i thought twice about putting a bullet

through her head

but, i knew that you would do the same to another.

i was another

i guess the only answer is to put the bullet

through my head…

when i was found all they saw

was an obsessed girl with a gun in her hand

and a note: “i wish i was her.”

goodmorning my love of eternity
the one whom i gave my heart
and soul to.
to live forever with
until the end of my days.
never treating you
with anything more than
gentle kindness,
sweet kisses,
and love making.

goodnight infatuated lover
the one whom i hide with
and passionately desire.
exposing to you
my true scars.
letting you treat me
with the bandages
of your fingers.
gentle scratches,
intense kisses
and rough cravings
for love.

To you both
i am divided but
to you both i will
give my everything.